I've had it.. yep I'm super over it.

Ummm K.... someone told me the other day that if you think 2 is bad wait til 3. Hmmmm Mariah hasn't hit 2 yet..... I'm going to be submitted to a crazy house.
I have been keeping my fridge stocked with drinks... ya know like 24 water bottles, capri suns, powerades when they go on sale.. I literally have a whole shelf of drinks. Mariah Noah has decided that this is THE MOST FUN thing mom does... EVER. Why? Because that means that he can get into the fridge.. throw the drinks out one by one... chew on all the capri sun straws... and if he so desires... throw away as many brand new drinks as he'd like!!! WHAT. IS. THIS. CHILD? People tell me all the time... "You must be running all day..." (insert sympathy face here) "I am... thanks. Oh, and the fact that you feel the need to tell you also know my child is naughty makes me think you're lame. ThatsitKthanksBYE." Hmmm.. maybe we need to do more quiet, cuddly, concentrate, reading time... I'll let ya know if it works!

a lil shania....

i feel like im crossing that invisible line from a girl into a woman. maybe i should have felt that a long time ago considering i have been a wife and a mother but i have never felt like it more then i do now. i feel like nothing can get in the way of my confidence and determination. i feel like even though he chooses to disrespect me i choose to respect him - and me. i dont care what or who or how he does things anymore. i just care that mariah knows that i was classy when i dealt with it. that i would never do the same things to someone else done to me - no matter the circumstances. i think that it would be easy to focus on meeting guys, and being social, going to parties, finding satisfaction in the moment - now. but i also know what kind of happiness that brings and i know the outcome of it. i am just really happy to be a smarty pants. im okay with waiting and being patient because i know how much more it will mean when whatever it is im waiting and sacrificing for comes along.

things that make me happy lately.

music.

mariah.

super cold bottled water.

seeing burned calories at the gym.

chick flicks.

clothes.

feeling liberated knowing i can be financially independent.

church. church. church.

ignoring dramatic people.

my days off.

my days on.

getting rid of b.c.

getting in bed at the end of the day and sorting out my thoughts.

swimming.

bachelor pad.

appreciating true friends.

feeling like a woman!

:) <3

i know my posts are kinda intense lately. but ... its my life right now.

Man! I Feel Like a Woman

Life

Pain and suffering brings the sweetest relief. I love that feeling of comfort and confirmation after a hard time. I am so lucky to have the people in my life that love and support me. I'm so lucky to have the cutest little boy ever. I love mi familia mucho gusto! I feel so blessed to have been given the life I was. I have a million things to be grateful for and I only want to spend my time soaking them up and enjoying every minute of them. I know that a lot of people have it harder then I do, I wish I could lend them the helping hand and love that makes such a difference in a difficult time. Life if truly about giving love and service and building each other up. I am grateful I have been able to learn that.

He has achieved success who has lived well, laughed often and loved much; who has gained the respect of intelligent men and the love of little children; who has filled his niche and accomplished his task; who has left the world better than he found it, whether by an improved poppy, a perfect poem, or a rescued soul; who has never lacked appreciation of earth's beauty or failed to express it; who has always looked for the best in others and given them the best he had; whose life was an inspiration; whose memory a benediction.
-Bessie Stanley

I wanna be a billionaire...

....soo freakin bad. Somedays I pretend I am. Like today. And yes.. it does make me feel good to spend money even though I have none. Hello hot rich husband............... wherrreee aree youuuu???

 Excuse my messy couch.

Mariah's new shirts. First two dillard's and last one Gap. On sale.

 

I was meant to shop <3 Alot.

SO PROUD.

Today I gave Mariah a snack size bag of chips and he was walking around the living room watching Monsters Inc. and eating those chips, well he finished and threw the bag down on the floor - which made me look up at him... after he threw it down he looked down at it, paused for a moment then picked it up, walked over to the trash can... and threw it away!!! I didn't say one word to him... smartest 18 month old ever! I clapped and praised my saint of a child. He also ate asparagus... which surprised me. Two more weeks until nursery!

On another Mariah note... we started potty training!! I am crazy yes. Seeing as he is a few weeks shy of being 18 months he is a wee bit young..... but I've been feeling bored lately so potty training actually sounds appealing. Plus I can take the $50 a month I usually spend on diapers and spend it on his wardrobe.. which is super fun! So it makes sense... bored = potty training = extra money = fun! Today was our first day, and today he went potty in the toilet! He sure did... but when he peed it shot straight out instead of into the toilet so I like pushed it down but then he would stop so I would let it go and he would start again... oh the fun we will have.

He is a babe. My babe. I love my babbe.

Venting sesh... open.

I am def. not perfect, I have made a lot of mistakes, and I'm sure there is more to come, for the rest of my life. But I am so glad that when it comes down to it I have self respect, I have confidence, I have strength, I have the Gospel, I have a reason and purpose for living. I take advantage of the amazing blessing I have been given to be a mother. To be the adult and provide for my family. I don't shrug off my responsibilities or try to pass them on, I accept them and I do them. I am so glad I know what it means to LOVE somebody, not just tell them you love them, but show them you love them. I am so glad that instead of being certain I was miserable I took a leap of faith and chance at being happy <3 I will never turn my back on someone I make promises to, someone I shared such precious moments with, and I will never tell someone I love them and then turn around and make an a$$ out of myself when its showtime. So grateful that He has blessed my life in countless ways lately, and shown me that He is aware of me and wants me to be happy. I know that we have something amazing coming our way, sometimes the waiting is hard but absolutely no doubt it will be worth it. Bad day. Just breathe.....

On a happier note, I love this outfit... and will have it this fall. Happy thoughts!

super spendy!

 

 Before

 Middle

 Not quite finished - I still have a few more things to do...

 The lighting was so weird right here... but this is where it will hang when Im all done

My (dinky little Ikea) couch <3 (because the comfy kush ashley couch didn't fit down the stairwell.. bummer) .. I was about to throw these pillows in the D.I. bin.. they came off my bed but I was looking for couch pillows at the same time.. I like them here.