Life

Pain and suffering brings the sweetest relief. I love that feeling of comfort and confirmation after a hard time. I am so lucky to have the people in my life that love and support me. I'm so lucky to have the cutest little boy ever. I love mi familia mucho gusto! I feel so blessed to have been given the life I was. I have a million things to be grateful for and I only want to spend my time soaking them up and enjoying every minute of them. I know that a lot of people have it harder then I do, I wish I could lend them the helping hand and love that makes such a difference in a difficult time. Life if truly about giving love and service and building each other up. I am grateful I have been able to learn that.

He has achieved success who has lived well, laughed often and loved much; who has gained the respect of intelligent men and the love of little children; who has filled his niche and accomplished his task; who has left the world better than he found it, whether by an improved poppy, a perfect poem, or a rescued soul; who has never lacked appreciation of earth's beauty or failed to express it; who has always looked for the best in others and given them the best he had; whose life was an inspiration; whose memory a benediction.
-Bessie Stanley

I wanna be a billionaire...

....soo freakin bad. Somedays I pretend I am. Like today. And yes.. it does make me feel good to spend money even though I have none. Hello hot rich husband............... wherrreee aree youuuu???

 Excuse my messy couch.

Mariah's new shirts. First two dillard's and last one Gap. On sale.

 

I was meant to shop <3 Alot.

SO PROUD.

Today I gave Mariah a snack size bag of chips and he was walking around the living room watching Monsters Inc. and eating those chips, well he finished and threw the bag down on the floor - which made me look up at him... after he threw it down he looked down at it, paused for a moment then picked it up, walked over to the trash can... and threw it away!!! I didn't say one word to him... smartest 18 month old ever! I clapped and praised my saint of a child. He also ate asparagus... which surprised me. Two more weeks until nursery!

On another Mariah note... we started potty training!! I am crazy yes. Seeing as he is a few weeks shy of being 18 months he is a wee bit young..... but I've been feeling bored lately so potty training actually sounds appealing. Plus I can take the $50 a month I usually spend on diapers and spend it on his wardrobe.. which is super fun! So it makes sense... bored = potty training = extra money = fun! Today was our first day, and today he went potty in the toilet! He sure did... but when he peed it shot straight out instead of into the toilet so I like pushed it down but then he would stop so I would let it go and he would start again... oh the fun we will have.

He is a babe. My babe. I love my babbe.

Venting sesh... open.

I am def. not perfect, I have made a lot of mistakes, and I'm sure there is more to come, for the rest of my life. But I am so glad that when it comes down to it I have self respect, I have confidence, I have strength, I have the Gospel, I have a reason and purpose for living. I take advantage of the amazing blessing I have been given to be a mother. To be the adult and provide for my family. I don't shrug off my responsibilities or try to pass them on, I accept them and I do them. I am so glad I know what it means to LOVE somebody, not just tell them you love them, but show them you love them. I am so glad that instead of being certain I was miserable I took a leap of faith and chance at being happy <3 I will never turn my back on someone I make promises to, someone I shared such precious moments with, and I will never tell someone I love them and then turn around and make an a$$ out of myself when its showtime. So grateful that He has blessed my life in countless ways lately, and shown me that He is aware of me and wants me to be happy. I know that we have something amazing coming our way, sometimes the waiting is hard but absolutely no doubt it will be worth it. Bad day. Just breathe.....

On a happier note, I love this outfit... and will have it this fall. Happy thoughts!

super spendy!

 

 Before

 Middle

 Not quite finished - I still have a few more things to do...

 The lighting was so weird right here... but this is where it will hang when Im all done

My (dinky little Ikea) couch <3 (because the comfy kush ashley couch didn't fit down the stairwell.. bummer) .. I was about to throw these pillows in the D.I. bin.. they came off my bed but I was looking for couch pillows at the same time.. I like them here.