Okay I need some help....

figuring out how to do my blog background! Update: diet is good, I have lost pounds it is so true you are what you eat! I feel great, however I am starting a 30 day diet on Oct. 1st I will post on it periodically about my success and my tips and my weaknesses! I am going to be better about posting and try to update this once every sunday!
Happy week everybody! <3

Eat Healthy. Work Out. Be Skinny.

 I want to lose 20 lbs. I don't want to lose 20 lbs in 2 months. I want to lose 20 lbs in 20 days! Can it be done. I think so. But we shall see. I have been eating a lot healthier these past few weeks. I haven't eaten bad or had fast food, candy, soda etc. and it really feels sooo sooo good. In fact TODAY I ate fast food which included a soda and an ice cream annnnd... I feel so ew. So I threw away my meal before I even got half way done and decided.. nope, not for me. I want to stay healthy. And then I decided to write a post on it. Before I had Mariah I was a huge yo yo dieter. I was also big on running. I started running in junior high. I would run around my parents subdivision and I was on the cross country / track team. The couple years right befor I had Mariah I would jump on the treadmill and run 7 miles in an hour. I have always wanted to do a marathon. I remember going to the gym with my dad as a kid and HE would run 7 miles. Okay so yeah... I love running. I want to be a healthy mom and wife. I gained 60 lbs with Mariah. SIXTY POUNDS. Yeah, I just admitted that. I couldn't breast feed so I lost the initial 20 in the first few weeks and then slowly lost 20 more... then gained 20 back... and then lost it again. Oh the fun. Now I have 20 lbs to go until I hit my pre baby weight. And I am sooo ready to say goodbye to it FOREVER. I will never be chubby again in my life. Ew. I HATE being chubby. I don't mind chubby people :) but I do NOT do chubby. good. at. all. I even hate the word. K so here is my whole point. I am going to blog all 20 days of my diet. I know pretty much everyone wishes they could lose a few lbs or be better at working out. Except for those annoying skinny ones who are like.. "oh you're trying to lose weight hmm I wish I could gain some." "Cool, anyways..."

Day one - this is my plan....

1 gallon of water - 6 apples ( thanks em :) )

Why so crazy? Because like I said up there.. I ate junk today and feel EW.

Work out - 2 miles working on speed. I currently run at 6.5 pace and for the last 2 minutes I up my speed to a 7. I also peek at all the skinny girls who are running and they are running at 7 like the whole time so that is what I am working on... getting out of the 6's.

STRETCH. So important. Stretching to me is like half my improvement abilities. Especially since I have had shin splints for months now and they are still bugging me.

More cardio - I like to jump on the stairs for some extra cals - I do the Fat Burn at level 8 anywhere from 5 - 30 minutes depending on my energy level.

Weights lifting - Legs. I do one legged squats holding 8 lbs. dumbbells. I also do the hip abduction both directions and the leg lift machines.

I should look like this in no time. ( 100% lying. I don't think I could ever look like that. But a girl can dream.)

I've had it.. yep I'm super over it.

Ummm K.... someone told me the other day that if you think 2 is bad wait til 3. Hmmmm Mariah hasn't hit 2 yet..... I'm going to be submitted to a crazy house.
I have been keeping my fridge stocked with drinks... ya know like 24 water bottles, capri suns, powerades when they go on sale.. I literally have a whole shelf of drinks. Mariah Noah has decided that this is THE MOST FUN thing mom does... EVER. Why? Because that means that he can get into the fridge.. throw the drinks out one by one... chew on all the capri sun straws... and if he so desires... throw away as many brand new drinks as he'd like!!! WHAT. IS. THIS. CHILD? People tell me all the time... "You must be running all day..." (insert sympathy face here) "I am... thanks. Oh, and the fact that you feel the need to tell you also know my child is naughty makes me think you're lame. ThatsitKthanksBYE." Hmmm.. maybe we need to do more quiet, cuddly, concentrate, reading time... I'll let ya know if it works!

a lil shania....

i feel like im crossing that invisible line from a girl into a woman. maybe i should have felt that a long time ago considering i have been a wife and a mother but i have never felt like it more then i do now. i feel like nothing can get in the way of my confidence and determination. i feel like even though he chooses to disrespect me i choose to respect him - and me. i dont care what or who or how he does things anymore. i just care that mariah knows that i was classy when i dealt with it. that i would never do the same things to someone else done to me - no matter the circumstances. i think that it would be easy to focus on meeting guys, and being social, going to parties, finding satisfaction in the moment - now. but i also know what kind of happiness that brings and i know the outcome of it. i am just really happy to be a smarty pants. im okay with waiting and being patient because i know how much more it will mean when whatever it is im waiting and sacrificing for comes along.

things that make me happy lately.

music.

mariah.

super cold bottled water.

seeing burned calories at the gym.

chick flicks.

clothes.

feeling liberated knowing i can be financially independent.

church. church. church.

ignoring dramatic people.

my days off.

my days on.

getting rid of b.c.

getting in bed at the end of the day and sorting out my thoughts.

swimming.

bachelor pad.

appreciating true friends.

feeling like a woman!

:) <3

i know my posts are kinda intense lately. but ... its my life right now.

Man! I Feel Like a Woman